Been MIA

For the last couple days ive been MIA. [ I apologize to those who read my blog] Its just been a tad bit hectic around the house. the husband is back to work on the ship.. no more havin him home before 2pm, back to full work days. The only plus is the ship is goin thru SRA for a couple months so he will not be going out to sea for that time period! Great for me since our son has decided that mommie is 2nd and daddy is first, and our princess is due in Sept! So im extremely excited! 

I also got in the mail the baby slings i ordered .. they seem kinda hard to put on tbut i rather have that than the kangaroo looking things you buy at Babiesrus. i got them on etsy.com n they ARENT cheesy looking either. i got one in black n one in pink!! LOVE them! considering i have a toddler it will b so much easier .. one in the stroller and one in the sling when the husband goes out to sea =) go here to see the things the lady has Blessedwithlife

As far as updates: i am now 28 weeks pregnant [ yeii to the 3rd trimester] i am so excited to meeet my princess and so scared at the same time! to give u guys a quick backround on my being scared: My first born was a beautiful lil girl. She was born with HLHS [Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome].

is a rare congenital heart defect in which the left side of the heart is severely underdeveloped. This wasnt diagnosed until the day i was due to take her home. During the hospital stay she would barely eat n the drs just said to see if shed eat on her own time.. really didnt happen .. the day she was due to come home with me i was told she had a heart murmur n needed to b seen by a heart dr. i am no dummy the dr that was coming to see her was over an hr away [ first red flag]. When he finally showed up he didnt talk to me until 2-3 hrs later [ second flag]. finally he comes in and tells me my precious baby girl can die if i take her home!! [ yes in those words] i told him to fix her i didnt know what else to say at the time. they finally told me she was goin to be transported to CHOP [ childrens hospital of philadelphia] which a day later she got open heart surgery.. my baby girl was a trooper. Drs there told me she would survive, she would need more surgeries through out her life to fix the shunt to that the left side of her heart would be able to get blood circulating. As long as i had my babygirl id b ok!! she recovered quickly only for the right ventricle valve in start leakin blood back into her heart =( at this point the drs told me i had 2 options [a] put here on medication and just wait it out or [b] put her on the list for a heart  transplant. In my heart i knew she wouldnt survive w/o the transplant so i put her on the list at 5 months old. We basically lived at the hospital, she was poked n proded n given meds 3 times a day until dec when i finally got news that my baby was getting a new heart! i felt overjoyed knowing my babygirl was gettin a second chance at lif but in the same token knew someone elses baby had to pass away for mine to get a heart =( Well surgery went great and couple months later she was sent home with tons of meds .. a yr and a week to the day her body couldnt take any more and my baby became an angel!
I now have a son who is extremely healthy [besides his asthma] but through out ... the pregnancy i was sooo scared .. according to what i have been told ... if i have more kids there can b a chance that one of my children can be born with HLHS. this scares the bejesus out of me. i never want to see my children struggle to live, or be in so much pain =(. this is the reason why every pregnancy is always so hard for me